I have been waiting since July to blog about something that tops the lottery one (but not won!) in July & after 4 months I figure I may never blog again if I continue that way! This week has been quite amusing (to say the least) with lots of funny random moments so I figure at least I can give you a laugh (I hope).
I have been trying to find what the common thread is that runs through all of them & I wondered if it was communication, but now I think it's just spirit reminding us the importance of having a sense of humour in these times... I have to say they have done a good job! Only a couple of weeks ago I was feeling incredibly down, but spirit have made their presence known in such a funny way, it has been impossible to stay there...
COMMUNICATIONS
Joy, joy, joy, has been emphasised to me so much lately, been told it by so many Phychics, that this is the path I tread right now, when I been feeling so shit! That will be right! I know that's the way it works! Linda, Belinda, Lynsey, Lin, they just keep coming, over & over again!!!! Client after client, fellow healer after healer, & teacher.....does anyone know what the name means, is it Joy by any chance?!
COMMUNICATION?
1)The last few weekly journeys to London from Penzance have been horrific, bad weather, engineering, sometimes causing upto a ten hour journey, getting in at 1:30 am sometimes & feeling rather ill, or cold, after one such particular journey I was then in my car, driving along & I heard spirit tell me to turn the radio on. It was Enya, John! My darling non-blood father in the spirit world- He loved Enya so much it was played at his funeral, but this wasn't Harry's game, it was a song I had never heard before & I strained to hear the uncomprehendable words, to which I heard spirit say, don't worry, you will get the message when you pull up. Sure enough I was pulling up as the song finished & the presenter announced "winter rains & trains by Enya". It was so beautiful to laugh so loud by myself (or not as the case maybe)...
SENSE OF HUMOUR?
2)Again, feeling low, in London this time, in that period, Rich rings me to say a parcel had arrived for our landlady, at the same time one had arrived for Nicole his 12 yr old daughter, from her nan, they arrived home & she rang straight away asking Nicole if she had recieved the parcel, to which Nicole opended the landlady's & pulled out the Joy of Sex!!!! I can't quite get the spiritual message in that one, but once again I was laughing!
COMMUNICATION/SENSE OF HUMOUR?
3)I have a regular client who has been seeing me every month for two years, every sitting is about potential partners, she is a very attractive lady & not short of them by any means! Last Saturday we were in one such reading & spirit shouted "Colin" (name has been changed for confidentiality) I said "do you know a Colin?" "Yes I know a Colin why what are you getting?" I say that spirit tells me he is the one so who is he? To which she replies "Oh- only my long term partner for 16 yrs!" I was gobsmacked! Just goes to show, even us readers don't know it all!........
COMMUNICATION
4)My mum, my ex & I go to a spiritual development class, we have to spin blindfolded in a circle and place a feather on a bird symbol, all three of us place our feather on the magpie symbol...
I go to a Crystal Skull workshop on Sun & am asked to take a crystal skull card. What do I pick? Yes a card with a Magpie on- because they are so common? (I think not)- like Magpies! So what do Magpies mean? Well superstition, limiting thoughts & beliefs? Sure enough the next card I got was Abundance island- yipeee!!!!!!!!! Still what I am working on- as well as my mum & my ex...
COMMUNICATION/SENSE OF HUMOUR?
5) On Monday it would have been my daughter Lauren's eleventh birthday, I had a lovely day reading for a new client who had come on two seperate reccomendations by her sister & her friend, after which I went to a greasy spoon to satisfy my craving for a teacake!- They were taking their time & I was getting aggravated as I needed to be back for two, which it was. She then didn't have any paper bags so started to wrap it up in polystyrine & paper like a portion of chips!- Eventually she handed me the t-chip-cake! & a turned to walk out the door which was six feet away, at that moment the handle went down on the glass door & it opened and I smiled & walked out (like it was normal!) her face certainly didn't think it was! I couldn't get my head around it either actually!- But when I was meditating at my other Cornwall work place on Wednesday I went so deep it felt like I had totally tranced out, I came round woosey & felt I should go out, I went to walk out the door & it shut in my face as soon as I reached it! Maybe it was Lauren! My child telling me no treats & lots of peace!!!!!!!!!
I then go out christmas shopping with my partner & walk into a shop to hear a lady say "I only ever saw one spiritual lady, she was definately on something I wonder if she was drunk" I look to see who she's talking too & it's the lady I read for on Monday...Oh we were just talking about you! she said. "She turns to the lady & says this is Tiffany!" (If only I had walked in just a few moments before!)
Rich & I then go to Co-op to get some Chilli sauce, I am holding two jars & reading the energy content. He finds one & thinks that's the best! I don't know I tell him, & ask him to read me the energy, "I don't know how to" he proclaims, "It's on the label" I say "Oh!" he says "I thought you meant read me the energy!!!!!!!!"
So here's to spirits & sense of humours, but not the kind that other spiritual lady was on!!!!!!!
May you have a spiritual yuletide xxxxxxxxx
Thursday 27 November 2008
Thursday 3 July 2008
I am still working on it! (Trust and abundance, trust and Abundance!)
After all the recent goings on you'd think I would have got the message!
Last Wednesday, I had a client come for a reading, he wanted to become a professional gambler. Afterwards I found myself around town at a bit of a loose end, so I decided to give the lottery a whirl.
I felt my guide so strongly, she stands to my right, she gave me the numbers 11,12, 22,23, 36,37, and for some reason I decided to split them into two lines, at her protest!
It turns out, if I had put them all on one line I would be 4.5 million better off instead of a tenner on each line!
That, is by far the most expensive spiritual development class I have ever encountered!
Nobody won it that night, so I thought I will try again on Saturday as if I wasmeant to have won it, then surely I will!
I didn't!
So, it seems, the whole thing was purely meant to be a lesson in trust and how I tend to get in my own way. Boy George I hope I learnt it!!!
Last Wednesday, I had a client come for a reading, he wanted to become a professional gambler. Afterwards I found myself around town at a bit of a loose end, so I decided to give the lottery a whirl.
I felt my guide so strongly, she stands to my right, she gave me the numbers 11,12, 22,23, 36,37, and for some reason I decided to split them into two lines, at her protest!
It turns out, if I had put them all on one line I would be 4.5 million better off instead of a tenner on each line!
That, is by far the most expensive spiritual development class I have ever encountered!
Nobody won it that night, so I thought I will try again on Saturday as if I wasmeant to have won it, then surely I will!
I didn't!
So, it seems, the whole thing was purely meant to be a lesson in trust and how I tend to get in my own way. Boy George I hope I learnt it!!!
Tuesday 17 June 2008
The End of an Era......
Last week, I had my coil removed. (Talk about airing my dirty laundry!)
I had one inserted since the loss of my daughter a decade ago and it had stopped my periods. Yes, I had no periods for ten years! "Great!- How do I get one?" I hear you say,and yes it was great, but over this decade my holistic and spiritual awareness has been gaining deeper and deeper awareness and I began to feel I needed to be in touch with my feminine nature, I began to see I had literally "plugged myself up" not great when you look at it that way. What about the proccess? The grieving process? Letting go? Let alone the fact that I work as a psychic & that is closely linked with feminine cycles...So I felt the time was nigh and I was interested to see what shifts may occur as a result...
The first night I had a nightmare that my black cat Mystic (Mystic Mog!) was being repeatedly killed in various gruesome ways and I was repeatedly finding her. I even recognised this style of dream and what it was about in the dream, it was so familiar. I had had it for for the first two years following the loss of my daughter.
I got up & went to work where I was immediately presented with a dying animal and asked to give it healing.
The next night I dreamt I was giving a couple a reading who had a link to Vancouver. That day I had a couple come to see me & I asked them if they had a link with Vancouver, to which they did, the ladies sister lived there.
That night I dreamt of animals being killed again, I woke to my mobile, my partner who had just left for work wanted to informed me a baby bird had fallen out of the nest in our roof into a bush and our other cat Tom, was trying to get it. I went down and shooed Tom away, then got into the shower. Upon arrival into my bedroom, Mystic was making little noises & pawing a lump under my nighty, she had brought the baby bird into the house! I gathered it into the nighty, and gave it Reiki whilst finding a good spot for it outside, but unfortunately it died, hopefully Reiki made the passing more peaceful
That night I dreamt I went to Bournemouth University & studied Forensic Science.
I had a reading first thing in the morning, she told me she felt stuck, I said "What about going to Bournemouth University & studying Forensic Science?"
She went white- she had never had a reading before- she told me she had studied Criminology & she wanted to study Forensic Science, that an ex boss now lived in Bournemouth & he had been asking her to cometo Bournemouth to study, that he had work lined up for her she could do whilst studying & a home...
That night I dreamt I was giving someone a Reiki attunement, when I heard the words "poor old Reiki Masters!" I t was my partner waking me up!
He continued to freak me out that day as I went to see my friend in Cornwall who I have the Mary Magdalene connection with to give her the book back (she the two Mary posts below, start with the one below the first one) and he asked me how she was, as he did so, he drew in the sand an exac replica of the ring they talk about in the bok, which is a planetary constellation, (something he knows nothing about, but then again he does have the moon in his first house)
The Moon: Responsible for the ebbing and rising of the seas, & as we are made of so much water, our moods, she rises at the night and governs our dreams, as well as the cycles of women...
I had one inserted since the loss of my daughter a decade ago and it had stopped my periods. Yes, I had no periods for ten years! "Great!- How do I get one?" I hear you say,and yes it was great, but over this decade my holistic and spiritual awareness has been gaining deeper and deeper awareness and I began to feel I needed to be in touch with my feminine nature, I began to see I had literally "plugged myself up" not great when you look at it that way. What about the proccess? The grieving process? Letting go? Let alone the fact that I work as a psychic & that is closely linked with feminine cycles...So I felt the time was nigh and I was interested to see what shifts may occur as a result...
The first night I had a nightmare that my black cat Mystic (Mystic Mog!) was being repeatedly killed in various gruesome ways and I was repeatedly finding her. I even recognised this style of dream and what it was about in the dream, it was so familiar. I had had it for for the first two years following the loss of my daughter.
I got up & went to work where I was immediately presented with a dying animal and asked to give it healing.
The next night I dreamt I was giving a couple a reading who had a link to Vancouver. That day I had a couple come to see me & I asked them if they had a link with Vancouver, to which they did, the ladies sister lived there.
That night I dreamt of animals being killed again, I woke to my mobile, my partner who had just left for work wanted to informed me a baby bird had fallen out of the nest in our roof into a bush and our other cat Tom, was trying to get it. I went down and shooed Tom away, then got into the shower. Upon arrival into my bedroom, Mystic was making little noises & pawing a lump under my nighty, she had brought the baby bird into the house! I gathered it into the nighty, and gave it Reiki whilst finding a good spot for it outside, but unfortunately it died, hopefully Reiki made the passing more peaceful
That night I dreamt I went to Bournemouth University & studied Forensic Science.
I had a reading first thing in the morning, she told me she felt stuck, I said "What about going to Bournemouth University & studying Forensic Science?"
She went white- she had never had a reading before- she told me she had studied Criminology & she wanted to study Forensic Science, that an ex boss now lived in Bournemouth & he had been asking her to cometo Bournemouth to study, that he had work lined up for her she could do whilst studying & a home...
That night I dreamt I was giving someone a Reiki attunement, when I heard the words "poor old Reiki Masters!" I t was my partner waking me up!
He continued to freak me out that day as I went to see my friend in Cornwall who I have the Mary Magdalene connection with to give her the book back (she the two Mary posts below, start with the one below the first one) and he asked me how she was, as he did so, he drew in the sand an exac replica of the ring they talk about in the bok, which is a planetary constellation, (something he knows nothing about, but then again he does have the moon in his first house)
The Moon: Responsible for the ebbing and rising of the seas, & as we are made of so much water, our moods, she rises at the night and governs our dreams, as well as the cycles of women...
Mary, the book, the babes and the bloodlines
WOW! (Newsletter dated 10/06/08)
Thankyou guys, for the amazing feedback! I felt I was taking a controversial gamble by hitting a send button loaded with Mary Ammunition, but all Igot was great feedback, so thankyou for your vote of confidence, the best being a lovely story I was sent by a lady who the newsletter had been forwarded on to saying how she felt Mary's presence so close to her whilst reading, that at the end she said her name three times and the energy became so defined it asked her what she wanted and they sat in diologue for half an hour. Perhaps you may want to try the same thing? Who knows what will happen as a result?!
So, yes thankyou B for taking the time to share that amazing experience, and thankyou T for forwarding, and thankyou to Mary for continuing to make her presence felt (Quite literally in B`s case), in more roundabout ways where i`m concerned, but take a look at this...
(You may remember in the last letter, I had said I was not sure of Mary's link to the Three Legged Toad, well I think I have got it now, just keep this sentance in mind as you read)
A week after sending the last newsletter my partner & I got some unexepcted last minute time together so we decided to go for a meal, as we sat conversing about the recent gobsmacking strength of communication from spirit a song started to play and Richard said "Tiffany, this song is for both of us, its both our genres, Reggae mixed with dance, we need to listen"
All we could make out was the chorus "History repeats itself in God's name" chanted repeatedly...Straight after, the staff put a Sugababes CD on and Rich said " Oh well that's the end of that then!" But I reminded him of how The Sugababes guided us to where we now live, (for those who don't remember there will be a refresher below),
the songs went in this order one after the other:
History repeats itself in God's name
Round Round
Who's That in The Red Dress? (The book I am reading about Mary places a lot of emphasis on her always being dressed in red)
That's Just The Shape of My Heart (The only song about The Tarot- those that know me know The Tarot plays an incredibly big part in my life)
Madman Situation (When we got in the car after veiwing where we now live we were agonising between two choices, we turned on the radio and heard these Sugababe words "Don't know which destination? It's a one way ticket to a Madman situation (we now live in Madron)
"From that moment the worries I had had around housing got intensified, there had been a lot of things going on, contracts, offers, & other big financial implications. Mortgages, Sick pay, holiday pay, pensions, or the lack of became poweful enough to destroy my otherwise happy existence. My payrise (due to The Legged Toad) was being swallowed up by a steep hike in train prices, & instead of thinking "Thank God & The Toad for the help to pay this." I was finding the negative gremlin had actually taken up residence in my head space.
My control issues span right out of control, to the point that I made myself and all around me thoroughly miserable, I got so sick of myself I got sick, my throat was sore with angry words & my voice went as I was so sick of hearing myself whine.
When the time for me came to go to London my partner expressed that he didn't feel I was well enough, but oh no I had to go and earn money! Besides my ticket was already booked, how could I justify wasting £50?!
As soon as I sat on the train I was gripped by a huge homesickness, which grabbed hold of my stomach and heart & gripped tighter and tightser as the rolling hills & endless ocean began to metamorphis into concrete hills & endless rooftops, (this definitely meant I was ill! I love London! It was so diffrent to how I normally felt I was shocked & I was so emotional the only ocean left was the one pouring down my face)
As soon as I arrived in London I was haunted by a poster all weekend wherever I went saying "DOUBT KILLS", it hit me like the double decker buses it was printed all over. I walked into Mysteries and a colleague asked me how I was, to which the ocean inside of me rose up & over. That day, I had four clients instead of the normal ten that day. ( The first one was called Gail, the slip she gave to say she had paid said on it Tiffany & Grail)
The Psychic who had originally informed me of The Mary link came sat with me and said to me to pull some cards about what this link with Mary Magdalene was.
Nine of Wands (guarding with stress, expecting the worst to happen)
The Four of Cups (The Holy Grail, inner child, nurture, inner security)
The Four of Wands (Outer structure, security, stability, acheivement)
The Six of Pentacles (money, control, unequal energy exchange, unfairness, poverty consciousness)
Boy, whoever said The Tarot was a mirror was not wrong! But what was interesting was this link between possesion and Mary Magdalene which was starting to become clear...
I left work to meet friend, that I had not seen for six months,he was running late, & I found myself out in the cold, waiting on the streets, hungry... I could see what I was manifesting.
When he arrived, I began to tell him what had been going on, I explained how strange it was because I had never been interested enough to read anything remotely biblical. He reported that strangely enough neither had he, but over the last ten days he had been studying Biblical text hard and had come to the conclusion that it all boiled down to possession of land. Interesting!
I went back to where I was staying and was left alone with my thoughts. I was still feeling really unwell and upset, I just wanted to run home into my partner's arms. I felt like a little child lost in a big scary city crying for it's mum, for love, for safety, for security, such a shock to my normal independent self.
I fell asleep, and dreamt that I was stuck on St Micheal's Mount (where the Micheal and Mary Leylines meet, visible from my house) the wind was trying it's hardest to blow me into the the wild sea that was crashing into the monastry, the sky was dark & stormy, & over on land was Richard in sunny old Marizion (The sun always shines in Marizion), partying happily & inviting me to join him. But I was so cut off from happiness by my emotions and swallowed by darkness I just couldn't move. Eventually I broke free & joined him, just before it was too late.
I awoke to find my eyes staring at an Edgar Cayce book, someone I have always wanted to read, but this was so big & I had to go to work, so I opened it randomly to read the following:
"Edgar Cayce often worried about money, even a great Psychic like him, often people didn't pay for their readings and he never chastised them. This time was one of the worst, Edgar prayed hard and God said "Stay true to me and you will see, watch what happens over the next thirty days"
Sure enough money came through the post everyday for thirty days, whether it was well meaning friends and relatives, creditors adjusting accounts, or people with sudden guilty conscience. Edgar vowed never to worry again, and he never did."Wow!" I thought to myself. "How funny I opened this 426 page book up on that page," & boy does it seem like spirit really hear your thoughts because boy did I hear them! Bang in my head clear as a bell, "Tiffany, why do you doubt us so much? Time and time again, when you are sick, you work, & then you ask us why nobody comes and we reply "because you are sick" and still you come, because you think you are self employed, but you are not, you are employed by us. We had to drag you here to hear, you are not here to give readings this week but to recieve them. It is not your life that is expensive, but your state of mind"
It was so strong it nearly knocked me over.You would think that would be enough? Oh no! By the end of another day of only three clients, the negativity had gripped hold. I overheard a student talk of her thirty thousand pound debt and my reactional unsympathetic thought process went on something like "yeah, well you gonna av a nice fat lovely salary to pay that with". Whack, spirit were back. "Tiffany, you are a student, you are a student of ours, but we have protected you from getting into debt, you have enough to keep a roof over your head and food in your belly, not only are you fed physically by what you do, but your head, heart, and soul are fed too, this is a starting point for you, it is not an indefinite destination that will never change, you too will be as abundant as that lady, but maybe even more so, for what makes you think she will be fed on the other levels?"
Okay! I finally got the message!On the train a lady asked if she could sit next to me, she made polite chitchat and asked what I did, to which I replied "I'm a Clairvoyant" she did not ask any further, but buried her head in her Micheal J Fox autobiography! I buried my head in my Mary Magdalene book, wishing I could lie when someone asks me that question!I could not get hold of Richard that day and I was reading about the crucifixtion, I was beginning to worry, eventually he rang and I explained this to him, at which point the woman next to me, put away her Micheal J Fox autobiography and brought out The Bible and a load of study books, she was on the Gospel of Mark. After I finished the call she asked me what I was reading, "Oh Goodness" I thought! "Here goes!". I told her it was a book about Mary Magdalene, and tried to counter it by asking her if she was studying Theology, to which she explained that she was a Christian who studied The Bible in her spare time, that she had done The Alpha course as she felt she was sitting on the fence with her faith and she was shown how The Bible contains an incredible amount of facts about Jesus. I said that I could not comment because I had never read it. She recommended I did so, I tried to explain that I can't learn things externally but I was struggling to explain and getting tounge-tied, when I jsut released and all of a sudden it was like spirit were talking through me"You and I bought a ticket to come on this journey, it was our intention that made this happen, but only because we need to do it to go forward & get to where we need to be, but once on the train, we don't know who the driver is, we cannot see him, but we know he is there, it is a faceless faithful journey"
The train stopped, literally as my sentance did, it was her stop. For three hours we had said nothing, for the past ten minutes we had finally honoured what the driver was wanting us to face, she made a noise as if to say she had regretted we had not spoke sooner, we exchanged pleasantaries and departed, I sked the book what she thought, the next line, on the last page said "The Gospel of Mark was the most damning to Mary Magdalene becasue of it's reference to Jesus casting seven devils out of Mary, people translated this as Mary being possessed or mentally ill, when really it was the name of the poison used on her"
I looked up to see one of my partner's workmates had got on at the stop so we ended up sitting together for the rest of the Journey. He showed me his art, all of Langedouc, Southern France. Exactly where the book was set.
I have my link between Mary and the Toad revealed... Mary is a misunderstood female related with maytrdom & unconditional love, (not unlike myself) the Toad is abundance, I feel Mary and the Toad are asking me to look at how my own judgements about myself & others judgements, keep me in a victim role & poverty consciousness, that unconditional love to the self and to others is the only way to be truly abundant.
The book has ended, an adventure in Langedouc is now beginning.
I returned the book to my Magdalene friend and then met my partner on the beach, he asked me how she was whilst he was mindlessly doodling in the sand, the mindless doodle was an exact replica of Mary's ring, a circle with a dot in the centre and nine dots unevenly circling the centre.
News........News.......News........News........News........News......News..I still have not found a way to jazz up the newsletters without turning it into The Da Vinci Code so hopefully the contents jazz you up enough! But I am on the case....
Mysteries...From July 4th I will be at Mysteries Friday & Saturday instead of Saturday & Sunday....
Many cheers for your ears and all the rest too!
Til next time, keep the faith
:-)Tiffany
Thankyou guys, for the amazing feedback! I felt I was taking a controversial gamble by hitting a send button loaded with Mary Ammunition, but all Igot was great feedback, so thankyou for your vote of confidence, the best being a lovely story I was sent by a lady who the newsletter had been forwarded on to saying how she felt Mary's presence so close to her whilst reading, that at the end she said her name three times and the energy became so defined it asked her what she wanted and they sat in diologue for half an hour. Perhaps you may want to try the same thing? Who knows what will happen as a result?!
So, yes thankyou B for taking the time to share that amazing experience, and thankyou T for forwarding, and thankyou to Mary for continuing to make her presence felt (Quite literally in B`s case), in more roundabout ways where i`m concerned, but take a look at this...
(You may remember in the last letter, I had said I was not sure of Mary's link to the Three Legged Toad, well I think I have got it now, just keep this sentance in mind as you read)
A week after sending the last newsletter my partner & I got some unexepcted last minute time together so we decided to go for a meal, as we sat conversing about the recent gobsmacking strength of communication from spirit a song started to play and Richard said "Tiffany, this song is for both of us, its both our genres, Reggae mixed with dance, we need to listen"
All we could make out was the chorus "History repeats itself in God's name" chanted repeatedly...Straight after, the staff put a Sugababes CD on and Rich said " Oh well that's the end of that then!" But I reminded him of how The Sugababes guided us to where we now live, (for those who don't remember there will be a refresher below),
the songs went in this order one after the other:
History repeats itself in God's name
Round Round
Who's That in The Red Dress? (The book I am reading about Mary places a lot of emphasis on her always being dressed in red)
That's Just The Shape of My Heart (The only song about The Tarot- those that know me know The Tarot plays an incredibly big part in my life)
Madman Situation (When we got in the car after veiwing where we now live we were agonising between two choices, we turned on the radio and heard these Sugababe words "Don't know which destination? It's a one way ticket to a Madman situation (we now live in Madron)
"From that moment the worries I had had around housing got intensified, there had been a lot of things going on, contracts, offers, & other big financial implications. Mortgages, Sick pay, holiday pay, pensions, or the lack of became poweful enough to destroy my otherwise happy existence. My payrise (due to The Legged Toad) was being swallowed up by a steep hike in train prices, & instead of thinking "Thank God & The Toad for the help to pay this." I was finding the negative gremlin had actually taken up residence in my head space.
My control issues span right out of control, to the point that I made myself and all around me thoroughly miserable, I got so sick of myself I got sick, my throat was sore with angry words & my voice went as I was so sick of hearing myself whine.
When the time for me came to go to London my partner expressed that he didn't feel I was well enough, but oh no I had to go and earn money! Besides my ticket was already booked, how could I justify wasting £50?!
As soon as I sat on the train I was gripped by a huge homesickness, which grabbed hold of my stomach and heart & gripped tighter and tightser as the rolling hills & endless ocean began to metamorphis into concrete hills & endless rooftops, (this definitely meant I was ill! I love London! It was so diffrent to how I normally felt I was shocked & I was so emotional the only ocean left was the one pouring down my face)
As soon as I arrived in London I was haunted by a poster all weekend wherever I went saying "DOUBT KILLS", it hit me like the double decker buses it was printed all over. I walked into Mysteries and a colleague asked me how I was, to which the ocean inside of me rose up & over. That day, I had four clients instead of the normal ten that day. ( The first one was called Gail, the slip she gave to say she had paid said on it Tiffany & Grail)
The Psychic who had originally informed me of The Mary link came sat with me and said to me to pull some cards about what this link with Mary Magdalene was.
Nine of Wands (guarding with stress, expecting the worst to happen)
The Four of Cups (The Holy Grail, inner child, nurture, inner security)
The Four of Wands (Outer structure, security, stability, acheivement)
The Six of Pentacles (money, control, unequal energy exchange, unfairness, poverty consciousness)
Boy, whoever said The Tarot was a mirror was not wrong! But what was interesting was this link between possesion and Mary Magdalene which was starting to become clear...
I left work to meet friend, that I had not seen for six months,he was running late, & I found myself out in the cold, waiting on the streets, hungry... I could see what I was manifesting.
When he arrived, I began to tell him what had been going on, I explained how strange it was because I had never been interested enough to read anything remotely biblical. He reported that strangely enough neither had he, but over the last ten days he had been studying Biblical text hard and had come to the conclusion that it all boiled down to possession of land. Interesting!
I went back to where I was staying and was left alone with my thoughts. I was still feeling really unwell and upset, I just wanted to run home into my partner's arms. I felt like a little child lost in a big scary city crying for it's mum, for love, for safety, for security, such a shock to my normal independent self.
I fell asleep, and dreamt that I was stuck on St Micheal's Mount (where the Micheal and Mary Leylines meet, visible from my house) the wind was trying it's hardest to blow me into the the wild sea that was crashing into the monastry, the sky was dark & stormy, & over on land was Richard in sunny old Marizion (The sun always shines in Marizion), partying happily & inviting me to join him. But I was so cut off from happiness by my emotions and swallowed by darkness I just couldn't move. Eventually I broke free & joined him, just before it was too late.
I awoke to find my eyes staring at an Edgar Cayce book, someone I have always wanted to read, but this was so big & I had to go to work, so I opened it randomly to read the following:
"Edgar Cayce often worried about money, even a great Psychic like him, often people didn't pay for their readings and he never chastised them. This time was one of the worst, Edgar prayed hard and God said "Stay true to me and you will see, watch what happens over the next thirty days"
Sure enough money came through the post everyday for thirty days, whether it was well meaning friends and relatives, creditors adjusting accounts, or people with sudden guilty conscience. Edgar vowed never to worry again, and he never did."Wow!" I thought to myself. "How funny I opened this 426 page book up on that page," & boy does it seem like spirit really hear your thoughts because boy did I hear them! Bang in my head clear as a bell, "Tiffany, why do you doubt us so much? Time and time again, when you are sick, you work, & then you ask us why nobody comes and we reply "because you are sick" and still you come, because you think you are self employed, but you are not, you are employed by us. We had to drag you here to hear, you are not here to give readings this week but to recieve them. It is not your life that is expensive, but your state of mind"
It was so strong it nearly knocked me over.You would think that would be enough? Oh no! By the end of another day of only three clients, the negativity had gripped hold. I overheard a student talk of her thirty thousand pound debt and my reactional unsympathetic thought process went on something like "yeah, well you gonna av a nice fat lovely salary to pay that with". Whack, spirit were back. "Tiffany, you are a student, you are a student of ours, but we have protected you from getting into debt, you have enough to keep a roof over your head and food in your belly, not only are you fed physically by what you do, but your head, heart, and soul are fed too, this is a starting point for you, it is not an indefinite destination that will never change, you too will be as abundant as that lady, but maybe even more so, for what makes you think she will be fed on the other levels?"
Okay! I finally got the message!On the train a lady asked if she could sit next to me, she made polite chitchat and asked what I did, to which I replied "I'm a Clairvoyant" she did not ask any further, but buried her head in her Micheal J Fox autobiography! I buried my head in my Mary Magdalene book, wishing I could lie when someone asks me that question!I could not get hold of Richard that day and I was reading about the crucifixtion, I was beginning to worry, eventually he rang and I explained this to him, at which point the woman next to me, put away her Micheal J Fox autobiography and brought out The Bible and a load of study books, she was on the Gospel of Mark. After I finished the call she asked me what I was reading, "Oh Goodness" I thought! "Here goes!". I told her it was a book about Mary Magdalene, and tried to counter it by asking her if she was studying Theology, to which she explained that she was a Christian who studied The Bible in her spare time, that she had done The Alpha course as she felt she was sitting on the fence with her faith and she was shown how The Bible contains an incredible amount of facts about Jesus. I said that I could not comment because I had never read it. She recommended I did so, I tried to explain that I can't learn things externally but I was struggling to explain and getting tounge-tied, when I jsut released and all of a sudden it was like spirit were talking through me"You and I bought a ticket to come on this journey, it was our intention that made this happen, but only because we need to do it to go forward & get to where we need to be, but once on the train, we don't know who the driver is, we cannot see him, but we know he is there, it is a faceless faithful journey"
The train stopped, literally as my sentance did, it was her stop. For three hours we had said nothing, for the past ten minutes we had finally honoured what the driver was wanting us to face, she made a noise as if to say she had regretted we had not spoke sooner, we exchanged pleasantaries and departed, I sked the book what she thought, the next line, on the last page said "The Gospel of Mark was the most damning to Mary Magdalene becasue of it's reference to Jesus casting seven devils out of Mary, people translated this as Mary being possessed or mentally ill, when really it was the name of the poison used on her"
I looked up to see one of my partner's workmates had got on at the stop so we ended up sitting together for the rest of the Journey. He showed me his art, all of Langedouc, Southern France. Exactly where the book was set.
I have my link between Mary and the Toad revealed... Mary is a misunderstood female related with maytrdom & unconditional love, (not unlike myself) the Toad is abundance, I feel Mary and the Toad are asking me to look at how my own judgements about myself & others judgements, keep me in a victim role & poverty consciousness, that unconditional love to the self and to others is the only way to be truly abundant.
The book has ended, an adventure in Langedouc is now beginning.
I returned the book to my Magdalene friend and then met my partner on the beach, he asked me how she was whilst he was mindlessly doodling in the sand, the mindless doodle was an exact replica of Mary's ring, a circle with a dot in the centre and nine dots unevenly circling the centre.
News........News.......News........News........News........News......News..I still have not found a way to jazz up the newsletters without turning it into The Da Vinci Code so hopefully the contents jazz you up enough! But I am on the case....
Mysteries...From July 4th I will be at Mysteries Friday & Saturday instead of Saturday & Sunday....
Many cheers for your ears and all the rest too!
Til next time, keep the faith
:-)Tiffany
Mary Magdalene & The Three Legged Toad
The period since Easter has been very powerful... (originally an easter newsletter)
So powerful, even I am a little apprehensive around sharing this,
particularly as I have tried to write this twice before and twice before it turned into the Da Vinci Code at the point of sending. Very apt!
However I am a Leo with Taurus Ascendent, making me very headstrong and stubborn, sometimes I have hard lessons to learn because at times I will ignore the signs and go ahead anyway. This, I hope, is not one of those times, and tell myself the fact it turned into the Da Vinci Code twice was coincidental! Ha! As if I belive in coincedences!
So here goes, and if it turns into the Da Vinci code again, then I MAY reconconsider! (I have since found out it turns into the Da Vinci Code if I dress it up, so this is a very simple humble looking newsletter!)
At Easter time I came across a psychic who told me of a very powerful connection that my partner has to Jesus, I did not need telling, as it has been incredibly obvious to me from the outset, I often sit scratching my head, wondering why someone who has such a strong link to Jesus is with me? For I have not in the slightest! Now I was scratching my head even more as here was someone who did not know my partner channelling this information and getting highly emotional around it and telling me that I had a link to Mary Magdalene!
When I explained to her the above, she told me that I was in denial of my link!
The next day, I lost my engagment ring, I realised this at work, so I told my boss-
"I felt naked and looked down and thought where's my ring?!" to which he replied
"Oh Tiffany, you come across as such a Virgin Mary but really you are a right Mary Magdalene!" I left very white!...
I then rang me partner apprehensively to inform him of the loss, for if you think I read into everything, he makes me look cynical! I explained to him, that I felt this was a nudge from the universe. We had got engaged in August, but not made any plans as we had a lot on with the move to Cornwall, but we were coming into a time that we could dedicate to it.
I found my ring,in the bottom of my big travel ruksak as soon as we started planning.
I then gave a new friend of mine a reading, I picked up on a particular friendship of hers and she said that she was strongly connected to this friend through a Mary Magdalene link, again, I went white- in acknowledgement she said she had been given a book about Mary Magdelane and had nearly finished. She had been asking who to give it to and now she knew. I came home, to see that my partner had also been given a book- about Jesus.
Two weeks ago yesterday, was the most powerful. I get into work and the first thing I hear is a snippet of a conversation "and so my daughter asked me what I knew about The Last Supper, and I said that the bible says that Jesus drank from the Holy Grail at The Last Supper, but the painting doesn't picture The Holy Grail, only Mary Magdalene".
I went out to get a drink, the shop I walk into has a big promotion on for a new magazine, it fills the entire window with the words "Was Jesus married?".
I come out of that shop to be faced with graffitti of the initials "J.C, J.C". I had been reading my Mary Magdalene book and had got to the point that said Mary Magdalene draws her people together in a location, a very powerful psychic friend of mine said that the South West had a strong connection with Mary Magdalene, (both he and this other psychic are in London) So on this day every time I go into a shop, I see a leaflet for a psychic called Leela so eventually I gave in and called to book a reading.
I find out her name is Maggie. Catching a quiet five minutes after booking, spirit come over me in a playful energy and start singing round and round "maaaaggggiiieeee...llleeeelllllaa....maaggiiee..llleella...Leela...Maggie....Maggie.Leela...Maggieleela...Magdalena.
My partner comes home from work and as I begin to recount the story the cd player turns itself on and displays what looks like chapter and verse from the bible, we look it up, its a scene from the crucifixtion, the first line says "and there was Mary Magdelane"When I have my reading with Maggieleela, she does infact confirm to me that she also has the MaryMagdelane connection and that it is a group consciousness and that through synchronicity I will draw & recognise the people I am to be working with right now. She asks me how I intend to use the information, I said I was not clear enough to know, she said it is probably better that way!
On Monday, my partner gave me a crystal he had come across when he was at a psychic fair. He had asked to be shown a gift for me and the next thing he saw was this crystal. It is called Magdelana! The Magdalena crystal, works with you in three stages, the first feels like your feet are firmly embedded in the sea floor, you are surrounded in a density that envelopes you in darkness and you are unable to see the light.
In the second stage, your feet begin to loosen and you start to move through the depressed energy into clearer waters, you are more hopeful and comforted by the emergence of light.
In the third you come upto the surface, the sun is shining brightly on your face and you are one with universal energy.
I feel I have spent the last six months (which have been our first six months in Cornwall) in the first stage. I feel the second stage got activated at Easter, when we finally came across our three legged toad!
For months a friend had recommended we get one but we had not come across one anywhere. Strange seeming I work in the most established metaphysical store in Europe!
My partner and I had gone for a drive and stumbled across a glorious little picturesque fishing village called Mevagissy, we parked on the harbour to find a crisp five pound note perched delicately on the edge. Greatfully we recieved and went on our way to explore this delightful untouched by time cornish land- we ended up in a shop- full of three legged toads- for a fiver!
That week, A three month dispute with my phone company finally resolved meaning I could take on more work through another phone company, and my biggest income told me I was getting a payrise, they were giving me more time off, and they were also merging with this other company I was going to start working for over the phone, meaning whilst in Cornwall I can still get all my Mysteries clients and when in London I still get all my Startemple clients...And we get a new bed bought for us (sorely needed, believe me)
The next week I found my husband (after eight years) who said he would pay for the divorce.
We found the Barn we want to marry in and a dress and a cake for next to nothing, but all of these needs to be finalised (as I said, I am in the second stage)
Last week, the quickest transformation happened. My credit card company rang me to tell me that they had looked into my situation and could see it was a genuine mistake so they have refunded my balance to my account clearing anything that they said I owed and they will make sure any defaults against my name have been cancelled!
This week has been feeling a little merky again, but I shall persist to work with my Magdelana crystal now and hopefully trust that the third stage is on its way....Now for the boring news!- I now have a blog, so if you like my ramblings then go to http://www.mailmarketing.org.uk/mailer/users/link.php?UserID=32521&Newsletter=86&List=23&LinkType=Send&LinkID=173 and click on my root chakra and you will see there is plenty more where that came from! On Tuesdays I am available to read through The Celtic Tarot phoneline. On Wednesdays I am available for private face to face bookings for healing and reading at The Healing Star in Penzance or privately for phone readings.On Thursday from 9-2 I am now working for StarTemple (see http://www.mailmarketing.org.uk/mailer/users/link.php?UserID=32521&Newsletter=86&List=23&LinkType=Send&LinkID=174) and soon you will also be able to get me through the Mysteries phoneline at that time. See http://www.mailmarketing.org.uk/mailer/users/link.php?UserID=32521&Newsletter=86&List=23&LinkType=Send&LinkID=175. My pin number is 7723. On Saturdays and Sundays I am available at Mysteries in person or over the phone for readings.
If you would like to book for a group psychic workshop experience please call me on 07985249028I hope and trust this gave you something, if so why not spread the magic yourselves by forwarding on to anyone you feel the pull toMuch Magdalena energy to you all (unconditional love and revealation of mystery)
Tiffany
So powerful, even I am a little apprehensive around sharing this,
particularly as I have tried to write this twice before and twice before it turned into the Da Vinci Code at the point of sending. Very apt!
However I am a Leo with Taurus Ascendent, making me very headstrong and stubborn, sometimes I have hard lessons to learn because at times I will ignore the signs and go ahead anyway. This, I hope, is not one of those times, and tell myself the fact it turned into the Da Vinci Code twice was coincidental! Ha! As if I belive in coincedences!
So here goes, and if it turns into the Da Vinci code again, then I MAY reconconsider! (I have since found out it turns into the Da Vinci Code if I dress it up, so this is a very simple humble looking newsletter!)
At Easter time I came across a psychic who told me of a very powerful connection that my partner has to Jesus, I did not need telling, as it has been incredibly obvious to me from the outset, I often sit scratching my head, wondering why someone who has such a strong link to Jesus is with me? For I have not in the slightest! Now I was scratching my head even more as here was someone who did not know my partner channelling this information and getting highly emotional around it and telling me that I had a link to Mary Magdalene!
When I explained to her the above, she told me that I was in denial of my link!
The next day, I lost my engagment ring, I realised this at work, so I told my boss-
"I felt naked and looked down and thought where's my ring?!" to which he replied
"Oh Tiffany, you come across as such a Virgin Mary but really you are a right Mary Magdalene!" I left very white!...
I then rang me partner apprehensively to inform him of the loss, for if you think I read into everything, he makes me look cynical! I explained to him, that I felt this was a nudge from the universe. We had got engaged in August, but not made any plans as we had a lot on with the move to Cornwall, but we were coming into a time that we could dedicate to it.
I found my ring,in the bottom of my big travel ruksak as soon as we started planning.
I then gave a new friend of mine a reading, I picked up on a particular friendship of hers and she said that she was strongly connected to this friend through a Mary Magdalene link, again, I went white- in acknowledgement she said she had been given a book about Mary Magdelane and had nearly finished. She had been asking who to give it to and now she knew. I came home, to see that my partner had also been given a book- about Jesus.
Two weeks ago yesterday, was the most powerful. I get into work and the first thing I hear is a snippet of a conversation "and so my daughter asked me what I knew about The Last Supper, and I said that the bible says that Jesus drank from the Holy Grail at The Last Supper, but the painting doesn't picture The Holy Grail, only Mary Magdalene".
I went out to get a drink, the shop I walk into has a big promotion on for a new magazine, it fills the entire window with the words "Was Jesus married?".
I come out of that shop to be faced with graffitti of the initials "J.C, J.C". I had been reading my Mary Magdalene book and had got to the point that said Mary Magdalene draws her people together in a location, a very powerful psychic friend of mine said that the South West had a strong connection with Mary Magdalene, (both he and this other psychic are in London) So on this day every time I go into a shop, I see a leaflet for a psychic called Leela so eventually I gave in and called to book a reading.
I find out her name is Maggie. Catching a quiet five minutes after booking, spirit come over me in a playful energy and start singing round and round "maaaaggggiiieeee...llleeeelllllaa....maaggiiee..llleella...Leela...Maggie....Maggie.Leela...Maggieleela...Magdalena.
My partner comes home from work and as I begin to recount the story the cd player turns itself on and displays what looks like chapter and verse from the bible, we look it up, its a scene from the crucifixtion, the first line says "and there was Mary Magdelane"When I have my reading with Maggieleela, she does infact confirm to me that she also has the MaryMagdelane connection and that it is a group consciousness and that through synchronicity I will draw & recognise the people I am to be working with right now. She asks me how I intend to use the information, I said I was not clear enough to know, she said it is probably better that way!
On Monday, my partner gave me a crystal he had come across when he was at a psychic fair. He had asked to be shown a gift for me and the next thing he saw was this crystal. It is called Magdelana! The Magdalena crystal, works with you in three stages, the first feels like your feet are firmly embedded in the sea floor, you are surrounded in a density that envelopes you in darkness and you are unable to see the light.
In the second stage, your feet begin to loosen and you start to move through the depressed energy into clearer waters, you are more hopeful and comforted by the emergence of light.
In the third you come upto the surface, the sun is shining brightly on your face and you are one with universal energy.
I feel I have spent the last six months (which have been our first six months in Cornwall) in the first stage. I feel the second stage got activated at Easter, when we finally came across our three legged toad!
For months a friend had recommended we get one but we had not come across one anywhere. Strange seeming I work in the most established metaphysical store in Europe!
My partner and I had gone for a drive and stumbled across a glorious little picturesque fishing village called Mevagissy, we parked on the harbour to find a crisp five pound note perched delicately on the edge. Greatfully we recieved and went on our way to explore this delightful untouched by time cornish land- we ended up in a shop- full of three legged toads- for a fiver!
That week, A three month dispute with my phone company finally resolved meaning I could take on more work through another phone company, and my biggest income told me I was getting a payrise, they were giving me more time off, and they were also merging with this other company I was going to start working for over the phone, meaning whilst in Cornwall I can still get all my Mysteries clients and when in London I still get all my Startemple clients...And we get a new bed bought for us (sorely needed, believe me)
The next week I found my husband (after eight years) who said he would pay for the divorce.
We found the Barn we want to marry in and a dress and a cake for next to nothing, but all of these needs to be finalised (as I said, I am in the second stage)
Last week, the quickest transformation happened. My credit card company rang me to tell me that they had looked into my situation and could see it was a genuine mistake so they have refunded my balance to my account clearing anything that they said I owed and they will make sure any defaults against my name have been cancelled!
This week has been feeling a little merky again, but I shall persist to work with my Magdelana crystal now and hopefully trust that the third stage is on its way....Now for the boring news!- I now have a blog, so if you like my ramblings then go to http://www.mailmarketing.org.uk/mailer/users/link.php?UserID=32521&Newsletter=86&List=23&LinkType=Send&LinkID=173 and click on my root chakra and you will see there is plenty more where that came from! On Tuesdays I am available to read through The Celtic Tarot phoneline. On Wednesdays I am available for private face to face bookings for healing and reading at The Healing Star in Penzance or privately for phone readings.On Thursday from 9-2 I am now working for StarTemple (see http://www.mailmarketing.org.uk/mailer/users/link.php?UserID=32521&Newsletter=86&List=23&LinkType=Send&LinkID=174) and soon you will also be able to get me through the Mysteries phoneline at that time. See http://www.mailmarketing.org.uk/mailer/users/link.php?UserID=32521&Newsletter=86&List=23&LinkType=Send&LinkID=175. My pin number is 7723. On Saturdays and Sundays I am available at Mysteries in person or over the phone for readings.
If you would like to book for a group psychic workshop experience please call me on 07985249028I hope and trust this gave you something, if so why not spread the magic yourselves by forwarding on to anyone you feel the pull toMuch Magdalena energy to you all (unconditional love and revealation of mystery)
Tiffany
Tuesday 20 May 2008
Pluto in Capricorn (Judgement and The Devil)
An investment banker wanted to know my psychic outlook on the current climate of the economy. "I bet you get this question all the time?!" (He was serious). "Well actually, it makes a nice change from will he come back to me". I really love getting big businessmen as clients. One thing I am not is Academically minded, so I have to completely let go & trust my intuition and the results are usually astounding, but never more than this...
Out came four cards:
Judgement, followed by The Devil, then Ten of Pentacles and lastly Five of Pentacles..
I was GOBSMACKED. Astrologically speaking Pluto moved into Capricorn around the time of The Northen Rock crisis earlier this year. Pluto (planet of death & rebirth) rules Judgement, Capricorn (sign of earth, structure, economy) is assigned to The Devil, these two cards are Major Arcana (the forces behind the scenes which make things happen, may help to think of them as puppeteers), The Ten of Pentacles (a puppet) stands for the strongest economic structure there is, The Five of Pentacles (also a puppet) stands for complete destrcution & loss of that structure, so here it was as clear as day, literally spelt out.
The investment banker enquired "My colleagues say thing will improve in six months, whats your take?"
"The purpose of Pluto & Judgement is to Rebirth, but it has to completely excavate beforehand, Pluto is in Capricorn til 2024"
"Hmm, so it may take a while then, that's what I thought", he declared and went on his way!
Out came four cards:
Judgement, followed by The Devil, then Ten of Pentacles and lastly Five of Pentacles..
I was GOBSMACKED. Astrologically speaking Pluto moved into Capricorn around the time of The Northen Rock crisis earlier this year. Pluto (planet of death & rebirth) rules Judgement, Capricorn (sign of earth, structure, economy) is assigned to The Devil, these two cards are Major Arcana (the forces behind the scenes which make things happen, may help to think of them as puppeteers), The Ten of Pentacles (a puppet) stands for the strongest economic structure there is, The Five of Pentacles (also a puppet) stands for complete destrcution & loss of that structure, so here it was as clear as day, literally spelt out.
The investment banker enquired "My colleagues say thing will improve in six months, whats your take?"
"The purpose of Pluto & Judgement is to Rebirth, but it has to completely excavate beforehand, Pluto is in Capricorn til 2024"
"Hmm, so it may take a while then, that's what I thought", he declared and went on his way!
Tuesday 6 May 2008
Autism- Entrapment or Freedom?
Today, I had a reading come through on the phone...
A voice said "I want to know about my youngest son"
I laid out the cards...The Fool, The King of Swords, The Moon, The Hanged Man, The Tower, The World, Strength, Ace of Wands...
I Said that I picked up on a soul that was without boundaries, that didn't fit in to the norm, that had a lot of compliations
She asked, "will he get better?"
Well looking at the cards, the answer seemed so strongly positive, but my guides warned me that the recovery or the outcome is positive for the soul, it is not the sort of "getting better" the mum meant. So this I explained to her,
to which she replied "What do you mean?"
I said the Soul had chosen this incarnation as it is,
At which point the lady angrily interrupted "My son has Autism, how can you say he chose that?"
To which I calmly continued " I understand your pain, it is uncanny you have come through to me, as I have many years experience working with people with Autism and I know the pain of seeing your child struggle with life, I lost my own special needs child. Your son is an old soul, he has had so many lives he does not have a lot left to choose from, yet the natural purpose of the soul is to evolve, this is one of the last experiences to live through."
"But will he get better?" She protested
I answered " A lot can be done especially as he is still young, but you and I both know there is no cure for Autism"
To which she professed there was
I did not argue but said "well okay, but I have already given you the guidance that came through about that, before I knew your child had Autism, I was speaking Clairvoyantly, not as a proffesional in Autism at that point"
She replied "I hate the thought of him being trapped"
At that, I looked down at the cards and had a profound insight, these were not the cards of a trapped individual, these were the cards of an individual who would not live the life of the normal trappings we fall into...
"I understand why it would seem that he is trapped to you, for me it has always seemed the same too, but we only see it from the outside, you have given me a profound insight today as I sit here with the cards I have never seen such a free soul, a soul that will not conform to what we say, is truly free, I know you want him to recover, but have you ever considered that asking him to recover is like asking him to recover from his personality?"
She put the phone down, I could hear her tears...
I know that my words can cut deep, but I have to trust that spirit sent her to me for those words. She was hanging on to the hope of a cure, you may think who was I to take that away from her? I may think the same to myself. But it wasn't me speaking, my guides blantantly stopped me reading the cards, stepped in and explained.
The more something is not accepted, the more painful it becomes,
the more it is hung onto, the more difficult it is for it to free flow towards you.
I remember when the doctors told me my one week old daughter would not live.
The nurses asked me to come and see her and I ran to my hospital room & hid.
It was a dark December day and the darkness in that room enveloped me so tightly in my denial it nearly squeezed the life out of me. It was such an intense heaviness, it pushed me right out of that room and right into my daughters ward. I held her in my arms and sobbed...
The nurse said to me empathically "You must be thinking why me?" To which I replied, "I am thinking why not me?" I was grateful for having my period of resistance speeded up...
A voice said "I want to know about my youngest son"
I laid out the cards...The Fool, The King of Swords, The Moon, The Hanged Man, The Tower, The World, Strength, Ace of Wands...
I Said that I picked up on a soul that was without boundaries, that didn't fit in to the norm, that had a lot of compliations
She asked, "will he get better?"
Well looking at the cards, the answer seemed so strongly positive, but my guides warned me that the recovery or the outcome is positive for the soul, it is not the sort of "getting better" the mum meant. So this I explained to her,
to which she replied "What do you mean?"
I said the Soul had chosen this incarnation as it is,
At which point the lady angrily interrupted "My son has Autism, how can you say he chose that?"
To which I calmly continued " I understand your pain, it is uncanny you have come through to me, as I have many years experience working with people with Autism and I know the pain of seeing your child struggle with life, I lost my own special needs child. Your son is an old soul, he has had so many lives he does not have a lot left to choose from, yet the natural purpose of the soul is to evolve, this is one of the last experiences to live through."
"But will he get better?" She protested
I answered " A lot can be done especially as he is still young, but you and I both know there is no cure for Autism"
To which she professed there was
I did not argue but said "well okay, but I have already given you the guidance that came through about that, before I knew your child had Autism, I was speaking Clairvoyantly, not as a proffesional in Autism at that point"
She replied "I hate the thought of him being trapped"
At that, I looked down at the cards and had a profound insight, these were not the cards of a trapped individual, these were the cards of an individual who would not live the life of the normal trappings we fall into...
"I understand why it would seem that he is trapped to you, for me it has always seemed the same too, but we only see it from the outside, you have given me a profound insight today as I sit here with the cards I have never seen such a free soul, a soul that will not conform to what we say, is truly free, I know you want him to recover, but have you ever considered that asking him to recover is like asking him to recover from his personality?"
She put the phone down, I could hear her tears...
I know that my words can cut deep, but I have to trust that spirit sent her to me for those words. She was hanging on to the hope of a cure, you may think who was I to take that away from her? I may think the same to myself. But it wasn't me speaking, my guides blantantly stopped me reading the cards, stepped in and explained.
The more something is not accepted, the more painful it becomes,
the more it is hung onto, the more difficult it is for it to free flow towards you.
I remember when the doctors told me my one week old daughter would not live.
The nurses asked me to come and see her and I ran to my hospital room & hid.
It was a dark December day and the darkness in that room enveloped me so tightly in my denial it nearly squeezed the life out of me. It was such an intense heaviness, it pushed me right out of that room and right into my daughters ward. I held her in my arms and sobbed...
The nurse said to me empathically "You must be thinking why me?" To which I replied, "I am thinking why not me?" I was grateful for having my period of resistance speeded up...
Tuesday 15 April 2008
Hi all templars, and...
Welcome to my first bog or blog or blog even...
It took me a long time to work this thing out! How to get it on etc...
But thanks to the amazing Adam, my archangel web designer it has been sat here for weeks on end now just saying "Hi Adam!" So sorry if it has been about as enthralling as waiting for Adam to get his ant...
He obviously just needs to come and sit in our kitchen because we have been invaded by the things,( I think this is just another way of spirit telling me I am too busy)
For the last few months I have been working as a full time reader for five days a week, commuting between London & Cornwall on the other two & studying for my astrological course and NVQ in care and writing a book and creating my own Tarot deck on the journey between the two worlds- which believe me- is what it feels like. plus also trying to read the five books well meaning people all spontaniously decided to give me in the same week- God love em! :-/
While im in Cornwall i`m a full time step mum and while i'm in London i'm a full-time socialite.
I stay at different friend's each weekend- this weekend it was my tv addict friend.
She began talking to me about tv- which is a different language to me now.
I explained I hadn't watched it in years. "Good heavens!" she said. "Whatever do you do with your time?!" she asked! "Good lord" I replied, "how ever do you find the time?!" I replied.
I myself am a self confessed ex telly addict, I gave it up gradually, after a childhood confined to the thing. I last watched the tv in 2003. (Spirit had to blow a few tellys up for me to get the message- which brings me back to the ants!)
Last week was maybe one of my busiest weeks, trying to hold down my employment in London, and cope with family responsibilities whilst undertaking training 9-5 for an Autistism service I have begun working for in Cornwall, with a 90 minute drive there and back and a journey to London either end, a colony of ants invaded our kitchen. We reckon upto 800! Being non-killing beings we tried to mastic up the holes but still they break through... My phone decides it will only charge when it feels like it, when I feel dead, it dies! When I get going again, so does it! Hmm...
This came to a head this morning- I arrived back from London last night, my partner gave me my key & I thought to myself "I must not forget to put that on my keyring "whilst slipping it in my pocket. Taking my step daughter to school this morning, I stepped out, her behind me and low and behold I remember "THE KEY!" I turn round in slow motion, & a warped deep "nnnnnnooooooooo" comes from my mouth as she slams the door shut! Looking at it in sheer disbelief like this could have posibly happened ( a bit like when the fridge gets empty) I think to myself this wouldn't have been so bad, after all it is a lovely day and maybe I deserve a day off, Except, it is my 1st day working for Star Temple, and I need to get back in to log on!
My partner works an hour away and its less than an hour til I have to start,and he has to have his mobile switched off for work, - & I walked out with my mobile! But low and behld, for once my step daughter has hers- and for once he has his phone switched on- nothing short of two miracles in a very short space of time.
So I have to sit and wait, at the mercy of time (those who know me know this is a very big mercy for me!) hoping he will be my hero and arrive by 9am when I have to start.
I do fairly well :-)
I realise that spirit want me to just "be" just "sit" and "be" before my big day & as I had been so nervous, it was all I could do not to make the ants look laid back. For a psychic, I have a pretty hard time sitting and meditating and I know that spirit need to take drastic measures with me sometimes... Just sorry that my partner gets dragged into it too- but then again it must be in his soul contract- or at least I like to console myself with that thought :-)
I do okay for about 3 minutes and 45 seconds, and then I start weeding! Well- how is one supposed to meditate when weeds surround the external?! The whole point eh? Perhaps another communication- well i'm sorry- I have to work from the outside in! Even so, I am relatively peaceful (and tell myself its grounding, particulalry as its all around the Bay tree which is linked to Gaia!)- given the situation, particulalry as my hero has under an hour to rescue his damsell in distress before she turns into a sacked ol' crone, & I know that if his shiny metal modern day equivalant gets stuck behind a tractor he might be faster on horseback...
Like I say, spirit talk to me loud these days and I know why they did it, and I did communicate to them that I had got their message and asked that he arrive in time, but sit there and do nothing? Nope, still couldn't do it!
I can see the oven clock through the kitchen window and start to obsess about the time, so I divert my attention to my reflection and start to do my hair instead! At 8:57 I start to panick and try to open the door with my credit card, and then I slump deflated as the church bells chime 9, bang on call my hero arrives in his metal chariot and grants me access and I only turned half pumpkin.
As I arrive at my reading station, I find this laid on top:
I got up early one morning,
And rushed right into the day
I had so much to accomplish
That I didn't have time to pray
Problems just tumbled about me
And heavier came each task
"Why doesn't god help me?" I wondered
He answered. "You didn't ask"
I wanted to see joy and beauty
But the day toiled on grey and bleak
I wondered why god didn't show me
He said "but you didn't seek"
I tried to come into God's presence
I used all the keys at the lock
God gently and lovingly guided
"My child you didn't knock"
I woke up early this morning
And prayed before entering the day
I had so much to accomplish
That I had to take time to pray!
Wow! I love spirit!
Welcome to my first bog or blog or blog even...
It took me a long time to work this thing out! How to get it on etc...
But thanks to the amazing Adam, my archangel web designer it has been sat here for weeks on end now just saying "Hi Adam!" So sorry if it has been about as enthralling as waiting for Adam to get his ant...
He obviously just needs to come and sit in our kitchen because we have been invaded by the things,( I think this is just another way of spirit telling me I am too busy)
For the last few months I have been working as a full time reader for five days a week, commuting between London & Cornwall on the other two & studying for my astrological course and NVQ in care and writing a book and creating my own Tarot deck on the journey between the two worlds- which believe me- is what it feels like. plus also trying to read the five books well meaning people all spontaniously decided to give me in the same week- God love em! :-/
While im in Cornwall i`m a full time step mum and while i'm in London i'm a full-time socialite.
I stay at different friend's each weekend- this weekend it was my tv addict friend.
She began talking to me about tv- which is a different language to me now.
I explained I hadn't watched it in years. "Good heavens!" she said. "Whatever do you do with your time?!" she asked! "Good lord" I replied, "how ever do you find the time?!" I replied.
I myself am a self confessed ex telly addict, I gave it up gradually, after a childhood confined to the thing. I last watched the tv in 2003. (Spirit had to blow a few tellys up for me to get the message- which brings me back to the ants!)
Last week was maybe one of my busiest weeks, trying to hold down my employment in London, and cope with family responsibilities whilst undertaking training 9-5 for an Autistism service I have begun working for in Cornwall, with a 90 minute drive there and back and a journey to London either end, a colony of ants invaded our kitchen. We reckon upto 800! Being non-killing beings we tried to mastic up the holes but still they break through... My phone decides it will only charge when it feels like it, when I feel dead, it dies! When I get going again, so does it! Hmm...
This came to a head this morning- I arrived back from London last night, my partner gave me my key & I thought to myself "I must not forget to put that on my keyring "whilst slipping it in my pocket. Taking my step daughter to school this morning, I stepped out, her behind me and low and behold I remember "THE KEY!" I turn round in slow motion, & a warped deep "nnnnnnooooooooo" comes from my mouth as she slams the door shut! Looking at it in sheer disbelief like this could have posibly happened ( a bit like when the fridge gets empty) I think to myself this wouldn't have been so bad, after all it is a lovely day and maybe I deserve a day off, Except, it is my 1st day working for Star Temple, and I need to get back in to log on!
My partner works an hour away and its less than an hour til I have to start,and he has to have his mobile switched off for work, - & I walked out with my mobile! But low and behld, for once my step daughter has hers- and for once he has his phone switched on- nothing short of two miracles in a very short space of time.
So I have to sit and wait, at the mercy of time (those who know me know this is a very big mercy for me!) hoping he will be my hero and arrive by 9am when I have to start.
I do fairly well :-)
I realise that spirit want me to just "be" just "sit" and "be" before my big day & as I had been so nervous, it was all I could do not to make the ants look laid back. For a psychic, I have a pretty hard time sitting and meditating and I know that spirit need to take drastic measures with me sometimes... Just sorry that my partner gets dragged into it too- but then again it must be in his soul contract- or at least I like to console myself with that thought :-)
I do okay for about 3 minutes and 45 seconds, and then I start weeding! Well- how is one supposed to meditate when weeds surround the external?! The whole point eh? Perhaps another communication- well i'm sorry- I have to work from the outside in! Even so, I am relatively peaceful (and tell myself its grounding, particulalry as its all around the Bay tree which is linked to Gaia!)- given the situation, particulalry as my hero has under an hour to rescue his damsell in distress before she turns into a sacked ol' crone, & I know that if his shiny metal modern day equivalant gets stuck behind a tractor he might be faster on horseback...
Like I say, spirit talk to me loud these days and I know why they did it, and I did communicate to them that I had got their message and asked that he arrive in time, but sit there and do nothing? Nope, still couldn't do it!
I can see the oven clock through the kitchen window and start to obsess about the time, so I divert my attention to my reflection and start to do my hair instead! At 8:57 I start to panick and try to open the door with my credit card, and then I slump deflated as the church bells chime 9, bang on call my hero arrives in his metal chariot and grants me access and I only turned half pumpkin.
As I arrive at my reading station, I find this laid on top:
I got up early one morning,
And rushed right into the day
I had so much to accomplish
That I didn't have time to pray
Problems just tumbled about me
And heavier came each task
"Why doesn't god help me?" I wondered
He answered. "You didn't ask"
I wanted to see joy and beauty
But the day toiled on grey and bleak
I wondered why god didn't show me
He said "but you didn't seek"
I tried to come into God's presence
I used all the keys at the lock
God gently and lovingly guided
"My child you didn't knock"
I woke up early this morning
And prayed before entering the day
I had so much to accomplish
That I had to take time to pray!
Wow! I love spirit!
Tuesday 11 March 2008
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